Angelic Pretty - Melody Toys
bought the jsk to the left in mint! ~
Anonymous asked: Did you always know you were gender fluid? Or was it something you realized as you got older?
I’ve always known that I was not like the other girls so for a long time I thought I must be a boy on the inside, but I was very conflicted by this since I love cute, frilly and pink things. And I like to dress up really girly too. I looked very androgynous growing up (and I was tiny, really skinny and short). I had no boobs, hips or waist until I was 15-16 when suddenly I grew 15 cm taller and completely changed in body type, so now I look really feminine. For some time I was not at all comfortable with this change. I came to terms with it by realizing that I didn’t have to feel like a boy or a girl, I could just be me.
Anonymous asked: Ur not a girl ...????
Anonymous asked: Wtf is this !! So r u a girl or a boy I mean ur body is it a boy's body or a girl's !!?? Stop denying ur true self love the way u are !!
Really? I thought we established that gender does not matter?
Why do you need to know what my body looks like? I only think my body should matter to people that have a sexual or romantic interest in me, otherwise I really cant see any reason for people to care. My body is my body.
I think it is you that denies my true self, since you insist on me needing to be a boy or a girl instead of accepting that I just feel like me. This is who I am, I don’t let my body determine what kind of a person I am. I’m content with my body and what I look like, I have come to peace with it. Sometimes I wish I had a more androgynous body but I can at least manipulate my shape with clothing and that’s good enough for me.
May I ask why you want to know?
Anonymous asked: You are so pretty and cute like asdfghjkl. You're adorable. And so is your blog.
Thank you so much! I really try my best!
Anonymous asked: I have a big crush on you. Love from Germany! :3
Awwe, that is so sweet! If you write to me off anon we can be friends <3
Anonymous asked: Okay, I know that gender does not matter. But you're a girl, pretending to be a guy who dresses very feminine? Is that right or wrong?
Okay I get these kind of questions all the time so I’m going to give a bit more serious answer.
for starters you even say “I know gender does not matter.”. well do you really? Since you are asking me apparently it in some way does matter to you. You see to me it really does not matter. I don’t have anything against gender roles, I just think both men and woman can take either one.
And you also say “pretending to be…”, do you think ftm and mtf people are pretending? Who decides the difference between ‘pretending’ and truly feeling like you are something. Next to “… who dresses really feminine?” and I want to say that I don’t think clothes have genders, sure frilly lolita clothes are clearly feminine, but I don’t think that mean that they are only for girls. I love lolita fashion and it has nothing to do with my gender. I love masculine fashions too, I have posted some ouji and visual kei outfits but most of my boyish outfits look kinda visual kei/emo/street style and I wear that kind of clothes as more casual clothes, there are not as many pictures of that since I don’t think people following me on tumblr are here for that kind of thing, but almost half of my wardrobe is clothes considered to be ‘mens clothing’.
When I was a teen I had a big identity crisis and it was solved when I decided that I don’t have to feel like one or the other I can just be me. I don’t care if people think that I’m a girl or a boy or whatever it just put me in the spot when people insist in knowing since I kind feel like I’m lying if I say that I’m a girl or a boy. For me gender is fluid and I’m happy being that way, I’m just me. I guess many people know this, but I really don’t like making a big deal of it since as I said before gender does not matter to me at all.
sorry for the insanely long answer but since I’ve been getting this question all the time I feel like I wanted to address it.
Sebastian's hair is amazing..! From some days ago, comfy light coords are the best ☆
Me and my bestie a while back~
Hnng, miss you even though you are sitting beside me right now as I am typing this!
Really like this photo and Sebbe are a total cutie <3